I haven't posted anything in a while, but it seems im not the only one who has seemed to died out somewhat from the blogging world.

Anyways whats new with me?

God has filled me with a trust I cannot explain in this time of lack. The old me would be freaking out about the situation we are in, yet I am so content. The other day we even received a check for a couple hundred dollars randomly!! They didn't even know we were hard for money from what I can tell. (and no it was not from my parents, or anyone related to me for that matter)God is showing me that his promise is true and it is so good to be able to trust in and rest in that promise!

My spirit has been filled with the HOLY spirit and i feel as if I am bursting at the seams. This last sunday was one of the best mornings of worship I have had in a while. I almost lost composure and burst out laughing off of the spiritual high I was feeling. I felt as if my fingers moved on their own as I played my violin, I felt as if I wasn't just playing notes at all but speaking something so personal and intimate with my Papa.

I am filled with a hunger to learn more about my papa, my jesus and the holy spirit. It is so exciting to know that there is soo much to learn about my creator that I could spend the rest of my life soaking in all I can and never even touch the surface!

I struggle with things of my past occasionally creeping up on me. I feel the sting every once and a while but it is gone almost as soon as it comes because I can rejoice in all that Papa has brought me from!

I was but an orphan-without hope, wondering, without identity, isolated, living for myself my- own terms, not belonging.

but you said " I will not leave you as orphans. I WILL come to you" -John 14:18

" fo you did not receive a spirit that makes you a slave again to fear, but you received the spirit of sonship. and by him we cry, ABBA, father!" -Romans 8:15

by the spirit of adoption we have been given by God a destiny which is transformed into conformity of the image and likeness of God!

I am thankful for this. I am thankful for these hard times, for if jesus learned obedience from suffering before dying on the cross, then how can I not expect to suffer with him in order that I might become more like him?

more later...