Needles

Today I have to get my blood drawn to see if I have gestational diabetes.  My sister gave me some of her numbing cream so maybe that will help.  It still sucks and Im still freaked out though.  I  think God made me afraid of needles near my veins so that I would never be an heroin addict during my drug phase.

Last night i had a dream that I thought I was going into labor, but when i looked down I saw that my baby was coming through my skin... like hatching out of my stomach.  I told Jake to take me to the hospital but he told me it was normal and I was fine.  I didn't know how to cut the cord so I freaked out again and it just dried up and fell off.  I had a girl.  Then I woke up to pee.   When I fell back asleep I had another dream that I was in some fancy city outside of a bakery.  I was about to walk in when I saw Tara standing on the side of the building.  Then we both went in and got a giant piece of cheesecake and I told her about my baby dream.  She said it was awesome and then I woke up.

I decided to play violin again.

P.s.  I decided that I am going to start a new blog.. but its going to be about my time in florida.  Lately I just feel like i need to write it down.  Its like i'm afraid I will forget after a while... I feel like it needs to be out there.  Like people should know.  Its not going to be easy.  Its going to take a while and its going to show some of you the old me that you never knew.  Its my story.